Constant

It is three a.m. and I just had to go let my dogs outside to go potty. For the past few months I have been explaining to them that we were going to have to make some changes as they would not be allowed to wake the baby up when he comes home. We planned to let him sleep in our room with us for the first few months and of course I would nurse him. As I know, all of this is not going to happen, but, he is still very much alive inside of me, growing, and I cannot help but wonder about what may have been and why we are being dealt these cards right now. I keep searching...